in 3 months, 2 weeks and 3 days, I'll be turning 21. since my 18th birthday, ive been on what i like to call "the suicide diet." the suicide diet was a nearly 3 year long binge of junk food, alcohol and drugs. at my peak, id easily go through 1 gallon+ vodka, 3 gallons of soda, and daily IVs of heroin and speedballs. i kept my receipts from 2011. heres the talley
taco bell- 367 times
dominoes- 209 times
mcdonalds- 456 (the great mcflurry binge of autumn '11) ..and 2012 was worse... ...and im finally stopping today in 2013... ..AND this pattern actually started mid 2010
id easily eat 10,000 calories a day of junk food, PLUS id constantly buy candies and snacks all day, and always be opening the fridge. i lived in vietnam for 3 months, i remember once while there i went through 25 days were the only things i consumed were water, heroin, milk, oreos, weed, snickers, and coke (as in coca-cola) o coca-cola... this is my shit. in my prime, which ended 12 hours ago, i was up to 3 gallons+ a day. when i wake up, the first thing i reach for isnt drugs or booze, its coke. ill give up anything before coke, but i MUST have my coke. whenever i fast, or that one time i went 4 weeks faileo, my cravings would vanish, and coke would taste like garbage. but i would actually force myself to keep drinking it because i kenw eventually the habit would come back and it would be delicious again. i hitch hiked to L.A to kickstart the hard rock revolution and pick up with guns n roses left off. i left by the mantra "WWSD"- what would slash do. would the 18,19,20 year old slash have thought rationally about the long term consequences of nutritional abuse and how it might affect him down the road? well, neither did i. except by 20 slash was in GNR and 3 days before his 22nd birthday, appetite for destruction came out. im 21 on june 7th and i have nothing. its like 20 is the last year of "true youth".
in my other questions, everyone kept saying "o 20 is so young so you have much time and a full life ahead of you". i started to agree, but that was a few months ago when i had a lot of 20 left. 21 doesnt seem to offer the cushion of time everybodyu was talking about..its not "so young" anymore, and theres not "that much time". you definitely no longer have you're "whole life" in front of you, because the 3 absolute prime years 18,19,20, are gone, and now you're entering the decline. once you turn 21, every subsequent year brings in decline.
one of my common activities is ill post pictures of peoples lightly older than me (often GNR in early days) and ask people how old they look, because if people say they look older i know theres a hope that im still marketable. i probably do this for my own pictures a deozen times a day...asking how old people think i look
what makes it worse is that ive probably done a lot of biological aging and damage to myself through extrmely high caloric intake (10000 cals of sugar a day for 2.5 years?) so now im turning to ultra pure paleo, fasting, and calorie restriction to de-age myself and hopefully turn back the clock. the question is, do you think its too late to make up the lost damage? i know that stopping further damage is important, but if i go on an unltra-perfect pure paleo CR diet now, could i be in better shape than most 30 year olds by the time im 30? or i have i seeded premature aging that i can never recover?
im a transhumanist, so my goal is to make enough money and live long enough to get the real life extension stuff...one day, it will be possible to be 23 years old for 200 years. the question is, will you be there to see it, and if you are, will you have access to it?
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